It was moments like this where
I needed strong hands to wipe away these tears..
I needed strong arms to wrap me up and hold on to me..
It was in moments like this where
I wanted to lay it all down
Moments I feel weak
Moments when I need someone else to take this weight off me
My mind gets messy
My heart aches
And the burden of being simply me becomes too much
And we Give
Sometimes with no limit
Until it drains every bit of us.
The power in this silence
Let this silence show you
Pay close attention
These present moments
The way others move.. how they speak
Where does your mind go
Breath. Be Here. And Let Go
I close my eyes, take a big inhale
And my mind goes..
“When I’m gone.. and you find yourself looking for me..
You might find me in the clouds..
you might find me in a breeze as you run through that field with the long grass..
But on the days there are no clouds in the sky and that field has been mowed..
.. you’ll find me in your heart..
Oh how your heart is my absolute favorite place to be.”
I understand that the words I want to say get trapped on the tip of my tongue.
All I want is to lay it all out.. speak my mind..my feelings
But fear stops me every time
How do you tell someone they are all you ever wanted/needed
How do you put yourself out there in that way
But speaking your truth will always show you what is for you and what isn’t.
It’ll clear out what isn’t supposed to be there.
or maybe I am not meant to say those words.. maybe that's the protection
a blocked throat chakra
I created a boundary..
But when I looked at him all I wanted to do was run my fingers through his hair
I wanted to ride with him until the morning sun came up..
I wanted to take him deep into my throat and feel his body release it all.
But.. I did nothing
I crave your touch
In such an intimate way
Fingertips tracing my body
Learning it… remembering it
Noticing.. every scar.. every freckle.. every curve
so I wait.